Monday, August 24, 2009

I'm offically at the end of my schooling.. 5 classes and I'm done.. =] Finito.. I'm so excited but I'm also very scared and worried about the future.. I know that if I put it all up to Fate and to God everything will be fine, but sometimes like when I'm feeling stress start to peak it's ugly head back into my world.. I wonder if what I am doing is all worth it. Is the schooling and the Hard work really going to pay off for anything at all. I mean 2 year degrees do not get you as good of degrees as four year degrees and by the time I'm done with school I could have already been in grad school. This also saddens me.. I feel I have milked the last four years for all they are worth. I mean I went to school yes.. but at what Price?? I mean I definately did not recieve the best education and I also know that if I wanted too I could have went to Ipfw and got a four year degree but I didn't and it makes me angry at myself for not doing better and working harder. I actually could have been an interor designer but I was just to lazy to actually do anything about it. I also feel like I'm not going anywhere at all. I actually picked up information about being a CNA at school today only to throw it away once I was out of school. I guess I felt like it was an opportunity but now I'm like screw that.. I could not wipe butts and give baths..Yuck I have a hard enough time making the food they eat..

My headache seems to feeling a little better but I think I may take some Tyelnol PM just in case.. .

Peace love and chocolate..