Saturday, July 25, 2009
♥ In My Home..
I am 22 years old.. I have a job. Yet I have 0 money and with this new acquired speeding ticket.. My Mother is going to be on ass even more about spending money.. Well anyways I'm just so sick of it.. I need a break I need a release and to top it all off my mother and I are going to be spending 8 days together here soon. 8 days.. I don't know if I can handle it.. I feel like I need to spend time away from her not with her.. It sucks cause I know that I want to go on Vacation just I don't know if I want to go with her.. I'm afraid I'm going to snap at her anytime she asks me anything as I do now.. I don't like being this way, but I'm just so annoyed with her.. I love her very much but it just seems like I should have freedom that I know I do not have. Her always worrying about me. Is annoying.. On the days when I'm a lone like today.. Is the days I wish should wouldn't come home.. Like just stay somewhere else tonight mom I don't want you to come home cause I want the house to myself.. Ugh... I hate it cause I just don't know if this living arrangement is going to last much longer.. I would go stay with my dad for a few days but he doesn't have wireless internet and I don't think I could really handle that for very long.. lol.. I mean I could but I would be quite bored.. haha.. and no tv in my room even more bored.. SO I think that is out of the question.. I just need something to do tonight.. I was going to go to Topeka but Greg is sick and isn't getting much better.. So I'm pretty much sitting here at home tonight.. Doing nothing.. Makes me pretty antsy actually..
3:04 PM
