Monday, January 19, 2009

So it's the first of the Year and I've decided that I'm going to Start Blogging.. I think it's a fun way to release whatever your thinking about. So here goes the first Blog Entry of this New Blog and this New Year..

Lately I have been at a cross roads. I'm at a point where moving on is becoming harder and looking back is easier. I have made a new years resolution to not be so stressed and to take things as they come but it's hard. Over the past year I feel like I've developed into a better person but I also still feel like I haven't grown as a person at all. I'm still where I was a year ago. Unsure of my future and pretty damn sure all I wanna do is go back to the past.

I cannot believe this June I will have been graduated from High School for 4 years. I mean I should be done with College by then, but I'm scared to be done with College I'm scared to be in the real world. I wish I could have stayed 18 forever. In someways life was easier then. I had no debt, no worries, just being 18, but then also at 18 I didn't have the friends I have now or the education which I have no idea what I want to do with. I pretty much feel lost. I mean where do I go from here?